Many years ago I did a one year foundation university course, and it was mostly a waste of time as I accomplished basically nothing.
But last night I had a dream of one of the characters I created during that year and I started thinking about the themes I discussed with my tutor at the time.
The very first project we had was the “explore bread” - now this was before I started retail work at the bakery department, so to me bread was just a foodstuff. I had no “deep” connection to the theme (the thought of having a deep spiritual connection to bread just makes me laugh) but I briefly looked into religious connections. Yeah, bread as the body of Christ etc just to not fail it. I played with this idea of if i made little bread people signifying bread as a giver of life, but then you could eat them, ripping them apart in sort of twisted god-like evil act. Of course, I could never made a batch of identical bread people so I made a giant bread cube I DON’T KNOW WHY I MADE IT or how i passed EVEN NOW.
But it was one of the bread people prototype (called Bob, but he wasn’t made of bread.) that I dreamt of. He was basically being killed by various mythical creatures but in turn, killed them as he was immortal. A vampire drained him dry but she slowly decayed afterwords. “Bob” came back to live as normal (and not a vamp) and she was screaming and it was all a bit of a laugh at her expense.
SO I FORGOT ONE OF MY OWN CHARACTERS BUT NOW I’M SAT HERE DRAWING HIM AGAIN because I like to think of a million ways to kill him in everyday acts and in my job. It’s actually really relaxing, because at the time of his creation I had no job or ambitions, so to try and find inspiration from things was like pulling teeth from rocks -I had no life experiences to draw from. But now I’m progressing in my non-art based career and these old memories now make SENSE and it’s the best feeling.
I also made another character that year, CeeJay, as a joke about comic superheroes and the food industry spurred on by my tutor, and now considering I had a job in the food retail business again, I CAN DEVELOP IT, I HAVE SOMETHING TO DO, AND IT FEELS GREAT. I even made a poster about him in 2010 and I’ve stuck it on my wall for good times. Cereal Bar man I miss you and your pathetic ability to make wheat grow. lol
The reason I doodle magical hedgehogs and pokemon is because it feels good to draw them, but I never felt 100% …. connected? to them. Like at the the end of the day it’s Sonic but just how i draw him - don’t get me wrong I LOVE TO DRAW THEM ALL sob sob so I’ll never stop but it’s an emotional dead end. I think I need to develop something I can relate to for a little while - as i get more stress from work, it feels darn good to scribble ways to lighten those situations instead of “ugh i really should finish my pokemon doodles from last week”.
Scribble down more awesome and personal dramas like:
Like wouldn’t be funny if when the health inspectors came to our workplace the other day Bob tripped and impaled himself on a fish knife and he re-incarnates by his dead body and he spends the entire inspection trying to hide his body whilst showing off how clean everything is to the health inspectors?????
I am not evil or anything pfft
also here’s 2010 Bob have fun
ps: I miss the uni studio and the people i met